You Would Probably Screw Everyone's Life Up If Given The Opportunity To Time Travel.

I always see time travel movies and wonder about time travel. Like, I am probably beating a dead horse when I say I think about going back in time and changing things. I think that everyone probably always talks about such things. Like, Man I wish I could go back in time and I would have said this to this person and they would have broken up with this other person then this little bastard would not have been born, and then my life would be substantially better. But, I don't really know exactly what I would change if I could go back in time. I would like to think that I would change something that I said or did to hurt or offend someone, but I really don't care about all that. I think I would go back in time and tell my three year old self to take my clothes off more. Because honestly, little kids get away with public nudity because its "cute" but, when I am nude in public I get arrested. I would just tell myself that people love it when I am naked. So, do it as much as you can. And my mom would have alot of gray hairs today. I think I would also go back and make sure that I recorded all the wrestling matches I watched on VHS and kept them in my tote. Cause seriously, what I wouldn't give to open that tote to find wrestling matches. All that is in there is a maze ball thing, an unfinished model car, old worthless baseball cards, some fake tools, and other things not cool. And I would not have let my cousin borrow my Sting wrestling doll that screamed when you body slammed it. That would save alot of spilled tears. I think I would just ensure that I turned out as weird, and great as I have. 

I also ponder about going forward in time. I have alot more reservations about going forward in time. Cause I would really rather not F everything up. I feel like I would like accidentally run into the wrong person and then they would do something about it, and I would then be a national fugitive of sorts. However, I would love to go talk to 40 year old me, and have a nice half hour chat. I would see who I marry, just to be sure that's acceptable to 22 year old me. I would also ask about his job, and then make sure that is also what 22 year old me wants. And I would see what paths I need to take to make things better for future me. Can you imagine that though? Like, what if 13 year old me came walking in the door just now? Wouldn't that be a trip? I would call 13 year old me fat. And tell him to stop swimming with a shirt on. And to take off those damn puka shells, and turn off the 50 Cent and Ludacris. Maybe then 13 year old me would get ripped rather than continuing to get fat. And I would be a cooler 13 year old. I wonder if 40 year old me would say similar things though. Maybe he will call me fat. And tell me to stop wearing wrestling shirts. And to keep listening to bad ass music. I feel like 40 year old me and 22 year old me would get along famously though. Like, turn on Monday Night Raw and have a Coke while we talk about smut, and how we dated the same girls. That would be such a trip. I would be willing to wager that 40 year old me still has a beard and watches wrestling. Unless his wife sucks. But, I would never let that happen to me. 

I just think time travel is such an interesting concept. I think overall, it would freak everyone out. I would scream like a rape victim if a younger me showed up, just the same as adult me would scream if I walked into his house. I think more often than not, I fantasize about time travel and the idea of it, because its an opt to make your life perfect. We are so consumed in the idea of perfection. Everyone wants things to be better, and we are consistently working towards that. I think I, of all people will refuse to stop attempting to make things better, no matter how good I think they are. While I don't know that that is a bad thing, I also am not so sure that it's a good thing. I think as long as we hold discontent with where we are, we will never feel okay. Which is something I have been thinking alot about. The whole idea of enjoying the journey, is nonsense to me. If you aren't progressing, you're regressing. So, in an effort to tie all of these loose ends I have created up, here's what I think. I think we can always be grateful for where we are, what we have, and the lessons we learn. But we can always be working for a greater purpose. This wasn't meant to be inspiring or motivational, It's just what I have been thinking alot about. And what I think about, I write about. So, stop dreaming of a time traveling machine, or a cure all for all your screw ups. Cause there is never going to be such a thing. The only person that can fix your screwed up life, is you.